I just did something crazy last night. I told my long time crush that I like him. I did not get the ending like a Cinderella but I am surprisingly happy. I feel a little bit lighter this morning although I have to admit that I was waking up this morning in disbelief and panic. It was so not me to confess. I am not an aggressive type of girl. I never confessed to a man before, sadly never the one who breaks the relationship too. I am in a submissive side when I am in relationship. So, what I did last night was so crazy in my dictionary. It just happened and I did not regret it at all. It’s okay :p it’s his loss for not liking me back lol no, Just kidding.

I did not expect anything when I said that I like him. I just want to say “hei I liked you in the past you know” and that’s it. I still maybe do but the chance of him liking me back is most likely 0. So, I don’t bother to tell him that I still like him last night. I don’t feel pathetic to like him for years though. He will still remain in my memory as my unrequited love, my crush that rejected me and undoubtedly as my friend. I just want to end this and move on. I can’t afford not knowing what he feels about me. I was so stupid hoping for the “what ifs” scenarios for the longest time!!!! It did not happen and I’m glad that I confirm it by myself. I feel so satisfied about it and so proud of myself hehehehe I have my closure now.

I’m still so happy about my life so it’s all good. I let him go. Please stay in the past dear you. I want to embrace my future.